Enjoying the Little Things

The more time that I have spent with myself I have learned about things that I do or don’t like. This happens to everyone, and I think it is a beautiful thing. Ever since I could remember, I struggled with knowing myself. I was in relationships where the person seemed to know more about me than I did. It is frustrating. It took me a long time to realize that when you learn to be okay on your own, you will be forced to know who you are.

I have always been the type of person that has to be doing something. When I have no plans, I get anxious at the thought of being alone with myself. I would rather have my day packed with things to do than take a day for myself and rest. I filled my days surrounded by family and friends because I couldn’t bare the thought of being in my own company. It took me a while to realize that this wasn’t healthy. Even my parents would tell me to slow down when I would walk right into the house to walk right out. Once I got to college, I was forced to spend more time with myself. I lived on my own, with my family far away. It took me a bad breakup to understand the true meaning of being with yourself and being comfortable on your own.

Ironically, I spend most of my days now on my own, and I love it. Of course, I love spending time with my friends and family, but the thought of having a day to myself doesn’t scare me one bit. After a training session, I am excited to spend the day with myself. I can go for a run on my own, shopping, out to eat, on the beach, or just chill and watch a movie. It brings me peace to spend time with myself. Take moments out of your day to enjoy the little things. Slow down, focus on the now, show gratitude, and appreciate the life you have.

You won’t be able to enjoy your life if you don’t love yourself—and you can’t truly love yourself until you can be comfortable with being alone. At the end of the day, the life you live is all yours... and it is always about you.